A Cry For Help !!!!

This recent diagnosis of diabetes now has me feeling even more challenged and out of control. My depression doesn't seem to want to give me a break in spite of a medication increase. I have another medication I can increase too. And yes it is with clearance from my psychiatrist. My knee was better but it started hurting again today after only two weeks from having my second cortisone shot. My back is giving me trouble too. I am not sure when I get to see the neurosurgeon about that. I have let so much get out of control in my personal and financial life too. I'm wanting to be with someone that stays so busy that I just can't seem to talk enough with her. Another lady would like to be with me but I don't really want to be with her because her friends and family are involved in questionable activities. My house may stay be mine or it may not depending on when and if I ever get my chapter 13 bankruptcy filed. I miss SweetSherri something fierce. I was just beginning to get back to being a close friend with her and now she's gone. I feel guilty for not being in touch more before she passed away. My recent divorce still has me feeling like a failure. My job depresses and stresses me to no end. Constantly rotating from day shift one week and then to nights feels like it is slowly wearing me down and killing me. I just need someone anyone to let me know that things can and will get better. I know I have blessings and things to live for. But my life just seems worthless right now. I hope it gets better soon,. I don't want to be hospitalized anymore for a long long time. Please God give me strength !!!!!