a cry for help

i am not doing to good tonight. i seen my counselor today and she had told me she don't think it is working between us. i am afraid she don't want to see me anymore. and it is all my fault. she said i was not opening up enough, i feel like i have but i don't think there is anything i can do to change it. i don;t think i can handle it anymore. i am so depressed tonight. i have not been able to handle much after this last rape. i need help on what i should do next. i tried to go to counseling but its not working, i am just afraid i am going to do something to hurt myself, that is how bad it is.