A butterfly without wings

I never expected to end up like this. Will I ever get my wings back? 

I have always been a very social person, someone who loves to be around people & meet new ones. People liked me a lot and was able to draw them towards me. I was happy once, I had a lot of friends, my family was close to me & I was freely flying. 

I was also the type of person who was "too nice," and naive. People abusive my kindness, my free giving heart, & I let them control me. 

Now that I have mature and understand a lot of things, the mistakes I made in my past for being too naive, selfish, & guarded has caught up to me. I have hurted the one person I love the most, and I live with a guilt. 

It's been several years now, that my social life has declined. I no longer have any "friends", I no longer go out or want to. I'm hiding inside these house in fear and is tearing me up. 

I just want to fly again.