A breakthrough .....

 I  have decided today when I  got up this morning that I was no longer going to let this drag me down, I start my new job on Monday , and I will put my life back together and get back to the person I used to be, Im tired of living under that dark cloud of suspicion all the time, I have made up my mind, if I find out he lied or is still cheating then it is over peroid. no more crying and carrying on, putting myself through this, get back to my life, drawing, reading, living,  not being sad and negative and worrying about what he is doing all the time, I can't do it anymore, so here is to the first step in the right direction.