A Breakthrough

UPDATE Friday, September 12, 2008 – 2:05 P.M.   I just returned from seeing my counselor (Dale) at the mental health clinic. Our session went very well. I took the initiative and told him of the inner struggles I have been dealing with. After we were finished, he said I had made a big breakthrough.   He confirmed almost everything everybody told me yesterday. At one time, when I was in my 40’s, my mother said, “Who’s going to be burdened with you when I’m dead?” I told him I considered that a mean and nasty question. He said it was worse than that, and it probably left some of the psychological scars I have been carrying around with me ever since.   Dale said my feelings of being a burden explain part of my reluctance to have pool therapy. He also said this came into play when I needed help from the physical therapists to do the physical things that I cannot do for myself. It was also a matter of trusting them.   He said that the next time I go in for therapy; I needed to let the therapists know from where I am coming. Dale also suggested that I try getting my doctor to order pool therapy through October in order for me to work on the feelings of being a burden, and try harder to trust the people who help me.