A bit better today

I feel like there's a lot swirling around still, but I have a better grip on it.

I did a lot of writing this am. I'm writing differently, but more honestly.

I have a book to finish and hubby will be home earlier tonight so we'll watch our show together.

I'm glad his schedule will be going back to normal this week. I get strange separation anxiety when he isn't around as much. He even said, "I feel like I never see you." 

Connecting with others hasn't been as hard. I've put myself out there a bit more in groups here at DS today. I let a lot of yesterday's ridiculousness go. I can't change people. I can just love them at a distance if need be if I can't avoid them completely.

I like that I felt good in being able to be there for people today. Feeling good is not the reason why I try to be there for people. I don't feel like I can "save" anyone, ya know? I don't need to help others to lift myself up or anything. But I do like that I didn't feel the usual "no one cares what I have to say" or "I'm so worthless I can't help anyone" feelings. I know how I feel when I feel I have no one...so if I can interject a listening ear (or eyes online) for another, then hopefully that person feels less alone.

So I'm feeling pretty good right now. I like it. :)