A bad day
Today was one of my worst day. i think I am finally accepting the death of my husband and realize that he will no longer be here. I will not see his smile, hear his singing or voice. I found myself crying all day long and feeling depressed. I went to the gravesite twice today and I just cried and cried. I cannot continue in this life it is to difficult and sad. How can I continue living without my husband. I miss him more than ever and it is hard for me to think that I will continue living without him. My sister had promised to take me out of lunch and she never showed up and when I called her she did not answer her phone. I got tired of calling her and finally I left her a message saying that I understand that she has her life and family to take care of but would appreciate if she would tell me that something came up. Finally about 2 hours later she called me telling me that she had to go to counselling with her daughter and she could not answer. She was suppose to meet me at 1 oclock and she did not return my call till about 3:30. It was a horrible day and to be stood up made it even worse. I think I am a bit emotional because I miss my husband so much. Oh God I love him and I miss him. My son is asking me to please take care of myself because if I keep this up I will go into depression. Today is a horrible day and I just took some nyquil so I can go to sleep. I will continue this another day.