8/7/07  I'm feeling very alone today. If I am not careful I will slump into depression again. I know I need to talk to someone but I'm just too tired of the whole therapy thing. I'm the only one who can help myself after all and If I am down that is impossible. I was an only child and was left alone so much that today it would be considered child abuse. I have been married for 37 years to a good guy/workaholic who promised to slow down once he was retired but me and the kids can't keep him down. He works constantly at his odd jobs but admits to being a terrible hanyman so things are falling apart around here. I am back to my good weight 5'4" 136 but with two bulging discs there isn't a heck of a lot I can do alone. So screw it. I'm outta here.