Wow, it's been awhile. I have been having such a time... I just am not dealing with this so well. Just when I think I get thru a day without a meltdown, I can't seem to get thru the night without crying. I try to sleep and can't stop thinking about mommy. I just miss her so much. I feel so cheated and it's just not fair. I am not sure why writing this all will help, sometimes its a good outlet b/c my house is sleeping right now. and it's quiet and I am alone and feeling very alone. I want my mother back. I want to talk to her. I just want to see her in a dream and talk to her and hug her and smell her. This just stinks. I hate it.