I just lost my mom last week and I feel like I just can't breathe. I don't know how to do this without her. I get up every day, I get my kids ready for school and make them breakfast, lunch and dinner... but I want to smile for them and all I do is cry and I feel terrible. This is not what my mother would want at all. But she was a part of my daily routine, we'd talk in the morning, throughout the day, shop together, cook together... now it is so quiet. My life just seems so changed and I just want to stay in bed or get out but I don't want to talk to anyone. My friends call, my sisters, my brother and I just have this weight, this incredible pain and I just breathe. Maybe I can find some peace here... I don't know.