I had my surgery two nights ago, 6:00 on on a Friday...pretty strange.  The surgery was on my anal fissure and I also had to have a skin tag removed.  I'm doing okay I just find it so depressing to be stuck around the house when you don't feel good.  I feel lazy and unmotivated which is completely ridiculous.  I have a really hard time being on pain pills.  I tend to get moody and I'm constantly arguing with myself whether to take them or not...and when in doubt I always end up taking them.  I'm sure most people take a couple and the rest sit in their cabinent for years.  I will take mine until they're gone.  I'm always in some sort of pain so I can always justify it.  I've been on Tramadol for a long time now for my lower back pain I've had since my last surgery.  It doesn't have the side effects like other pain medicine.  I wonder if I'll always be on some sort of pain medicine?  The problem is is that I'm really hard on myself about taking them.  I automatically think of them as "wrong" or "bad".  I could probably live my life without them I just think I would be miserable.  Is it wrong that I want to be comfortable?  How would I feel if I went an entire day without a pain pill?  I don't know because it's been over a year since I've done it

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deleted_user
deleted_user

It\'s not wrong to want to feel comfortable; you are the mother of two children and you want to feel as well as you possibly can with them. After my surgery the doctor told me to take the pain meds before the pain became insurmountable. They gave you the meds for a reason. What surgery did you have for your back?
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clrbyers4
clrbyers4

Thank you :o). I didn\'t have surgery on my back, I\'ve had the lower back pain since my 3rd bowel resection. I had some pain before but It\'s become constant since then. I\'ve never really gotten my diarrhea under control and I think they\'re related.