I had my surgery two nights ago, 6:00 on on a Friday...pretty strange.  The surgery was on my anal fissure and I also had to have a skin tag removed.  I'm doing okay I just find it so depressing to be stuck around the house when you don't feel good.  I feel lazy and unmotivated which is completely ridiculous.  I have a really hard time being on pain pills.  I tend to get moody and I'm constantly arguing with myself whether to take them or not...and when in doubt I always end up taking them.  I'm sure most people take a couple and the rest sit in their cabinent for years.  I will take mine until they're gone.  I'm always in some sort of pain so I can always justify it.  I've been on Tramadol for a long time now for my lower back pain I've had since my last surgery.  It doesn't have the side effects like other pain medicine.  I wonder if I'll always be on some sort of pain medicine?  The problem is is that I'm really hard on myself about taking them.  I automatically think of them as "wrong" or "bad".  I could probably live my life without them I just think I would be miserable.  Is it wrong that I want to be comfortable?  How would I feel if I went an entire day without a pain pill?  I don't know because it's been over a year since I've done it