To my fellow ASD parents. Do you ever get that overwhelming urge to scream and just get away? This summer has been really tough for me. Jarrett has become so defiant and just plain difficult. He picks on his baby brother as well as any small child he gets near. We went to the playground last week and he actually pinned down a two year old girl for no reason. I've been planning my Vow renewal, or I guess you could just call it a wedding. The added stress is enough to make me certifiably insane! I read an article talking about how much added stress there is on parents of ASD kids and I'm telling you I'm definatly feeling it. I'm just so tired of the meltdowns and the behavior problems and everything else that comes with it. For once, I'd like to hear one of my "friends" offer to watch my boys so I could get away for a little bit. BUt of course no one ever does. They act like my son has the Plauge! Thier kids ignore him and treat him like an outcast. I cant completely blame them, they've all been assaulted by my son at least once. I'm tired of having to explain to strangers why he's acting the way he does.I'm tired of the dirty looks, and the phone calls from the school, the constant medical problems, the fact that he hardly eats.....I'm just plain TIRED!!!!!!There are no behavior specialists in my area, no real special services. HIs diganosis is not severe enough to qualify for us to be PCS to a new duty station where servies are avaliable. I just dont know what to do anymore. Just Venting.......