Wow! I'm 12 weeks today.It was at 12 weeks 7 months ago that I found out my other pregnancy had failed. Out of 4 miscarriages I have never felt that much hurt and confusion in my whole life. I know that baby didn't actually make it to 12 weeks he/she actually died at about 6 weeks, but it is still scary to think that it was around this time that I found out. Other than the dizzy spells ,sore breasts and morning sickness, I dont even feel very pregnant. It's hard to believe there's a 12 week fetus in there. My stomach isn't even hard yet. I heard my baby's heart beating two days ago, I couldn't find it yesterday, my lower abdomen is actually sore from me trying so  hard to find it. I think buying that doppler just made me more paranoid than ever. So I'm taking a break from using it for a few days. I have an appt on the 11th at 8am. This baby has to be okay, I dont think I can handle another loss. I'm just panicking, which I shouldn't. I'm at 12 weeks no cramping or bleeing or anyting so I guess he's okay in there. Urggh! I need another ultrasound! I wanna see my little one in there happy and healthy. I hate bothering my doctors office, I'm sure they're getting tired of me. But I cant help but worry about this baby...all the time.