Started preparing my family for the inevitable today...saw the doctor yesterday and an inpatient stay and ECT are definately on the cards for the near future. I am praying that I can convince them Im fine for another week because it is delphi's 3rd birthday and this will be the 1st time shes had a real party and she is so excited. It would break her heart if I wasnt at home to do it for her and I cant do that to her.
I am hoping it will be a short 2 week stay and 6 sessions are enough to lift me up enough to feel some happiness again. I am really scared even though I have had it before that I will forget everything and never get the memories back.