Went to "Elder training" at church yesterday. I think I made a mistake. They have a part where they "examine" you, ask questions about your faith journey. I have an attempted suicide in my past which is very key to my faith journey. I told them about it. They accepted me, but I could tell by the look on the face of one of them, that she is now not sure about me. I just felt I should be honest. I am ashamed of what I did, but there isn't anything I can do about it. And I just felt like they should know. I really wish I would learn to keep my big mouth shut. Is that part of NF, not knowing when to shut up? Didn't run or even walk today. Training took most of the day, then I went out to shop for my girl scout meeting on Monday. Probably won't run today. Might be a good thing, I have a long run tomorrow. I am feeling better physically. I guess my episode Friday night was just nerves. And I get installed as elder today, if they still want me. And my oldest son goes back to New York, to snow and ice.