So yesterday went for a nice 3 mile run. It felt good. Eating this weekend has been out of control terrible. No real binges, just not what I should be doing. Still don't have a job. Still pretty much a failure at life. Feeling really tired today. Getting ready for a walk with my dog. Update: Okay, so just read an article in the paper that says the average job search lasts 5.5 months. So okay, I'll stop measuring my wrists for razor blades and try to hang in there a bit longer.
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That\'s the spirit. And remember, the economy is such that the search might take a bit longer, but I\'m sure the right job witlll open up for you.
My dear Marah,
Oh how my heart aches for you. I really know how you feel. I also feel like a failure a lot of the time. I feel that my life is also a path of many mistakes and wrong turns. You have 4 beautiful children that the Lord has blessed you with, right there that is something I wish I had. I only had 1 child , but I do have 2 step-children that I adore. You are really hard on yourself, why do you think? Like me , I pray you try to stop and look at all the good things in your like and where would you be without thoes blessings. I try to think of \"Job\" in the bible, everything was taken away from him, his wife, children, land, cattle, everything, but yet he never cursed God. I try to remember that. We all praise the Lord when things go good, but the first sign of trouble, we blame God. You will be fine, you have a lot of support here. I reallydidnt mean to sound preachy, but I care and myt faith always comes into everything I say & do.
justme
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