Not feeling any better this morning.  But being tired isn't helping.  My dog woke me up barking this morning.  Hubby let him out to potty when he got up at 4AM and he won't come in and from time to time has a barking jag.  I am sure my neighbors love me right now.  I saw a show on Discovery Health about Proteus Syndrome.  Funny thing, what I have NF is often referred to as "Elephant Man's Disease", but John Merrick had Proteus Syndrome not NF.  The difference is with Proteus, you get bones that over grow.  With NF you get tumors, skin tags, etc.   What we have in common is that there is no treatment and no cure.  I am so tired of having NF.  Sometimes I just want to give up.  But then I feel guilty because I know there are people who have a much harder time than I , but it just really hurts sometimes to know that people look at me differently because of the tumors.  I would get rid of them if I could find a doctor who would do it.  Don't they know that I don't want to look this way?  I wish I could afford to just go to a plastic surgeon and tell him money is no object, you don't have to make me look pretty, I'm not looking for a miracle, just make me look less like a freak.  I don't know if my running in this marathon will make any difference, but at least it is something.  Well, today my goal is 13.1 miles, halfway.  I want to do this, I need to do this, I have to do this.  If I make it, I get to do a goal update and put my Run a marathon at 50%.  So that has to be good, right?