I am writing earlier than usual trying to erase yesterday's demons.  My doc appt is at 8:45 this morning.  I am still really apprehensive about it.  I still feel weepy.  But I am really trying to as Lady MacBeth would say, screw my courage to the "sticking place" whatever that is.  And I am really going to try to do better food wise.  I gained one pound from yesterday's binge.  So I guess not too bad.  I don't know what exercise I will be getting today, depends on how I feel after the surgery or proceedure or whatever.  Wish me luck, say a prayer, whatever your inclination.  I will take any well wishes people can send.  I am not changing my smilie face thing until after.  Then you will know how it went.Oh and a girl who  was in my GS troop last year, not this year, her father had a stroke over the weekend, I just found out he died on Monday.  So prayers for Erin would be nice.  I don't know how old he was, but Erin is in the 4th grade.  So young to loose your daddy.