Today was a strange day, I have felt numb since yesterday morning. I am not on any meds yet, I go to the neuro-pharmocologist Tuesday. I feel like a drooly dribbling moron. I'm also really anxious and uptight right now and I dont know why...really wish I had someone to talk to right now. My normal friend isn't online right now and I really miss her. I really need to talk and she's not there. I did get to talk to Otterheart tonight on the phone and this is the first time I'm getting to talk to anyone from DS. it was pretty awesome talking to her when she's manic!! helps me to understand what my wife has been working with the past 12 years. I know sometimes I can be a real handful...difficult to handle, maureen is sick today and I really wnt to reach out and be sweet and take cae of her, but everytime we get in the same room today we end up snapping at each other and I don't want that. So I played paintball with Andrew and his girlfriend, we played 2 on 1, so it was alot more difficult for me and they actually beat me 3 out of 4 games. We played hide and seek or hunter/hunted...we switched off hiding and hunting, I spent most times hunting...I have a half a dozen little red circles all around my torso from the hits!! OUCH!! But it was so worth it!! It's an incredible way to focus on life for that moment. I do have to ADMIT THAT IT'S MUCH MORE FUN TWO ON TWO!!!! Two vs. One is a serious challenge, you have much more to deal with and to be honest I was not prepared for it...but I will be next time!! So come on down Otter...we'll beat up on the kids!! I hope this feeling goes away soon. I need to sell some loans!! Not sure how we're gonna make the bills this month...money is going out faster than it is coming in...if I could only get this house sold!! Oh dear God please please please sell this house for us!!! St Joseph, patron saint of families, please watch over my family and I ask that you go to Jesus and intercede on our behalf in asking that our house sells quickly and for the asking price!! Amen!!
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Yea for paintball! lol :) I\'ll be praying for you and your family AND that your house sells soon...How many bdrs and baths? :) Love, Jess
gotta love paintball smile...sweetie i too will be praying that your house sells and that you sell some loans...i know about the money going out faster than it comes in that is happening with us right now since i can\'t work....it\'s gets really scarey sometimes...but God always provides...he has not let us down yet...somehow we always manage to get the most important things paid...hang in there and i hope you feel better soon and less anxious...hugs to you sweetie....i\'m here if you want to talk...love terri
Wow you are growing and changing so quickly. Its exciting to see how openm you are now to joining the club. It\'ll be OK.
Thank you so much for your worldly expertise tonight! ;) Hugzzzz.
I wanna play, the first time I ever played was in WEST VIRGINIA, it was a blast, but never play in a tshirt, that was a lesson I won\'t forget. I thought I was tough, I cried like a bitch, and it hurt. Good luck at the docs Tuesday, Tell him/her everything you\'re feeling, remember this person can help or hurt you with the information you don\'t express to them.
I too will keep you and your own in my prayers. Glad to hear that you got out and did something you enjoy. Donnie is right you have to tell them the truth about how you feel, make a list or take notes before you go if needed so you dont forget anything.
Good luck with the house, the paintball sounds fun! Also, the drugs are working for me. I feel normal and that feels strange. If they work for me, they should work for you.
Charles