Took some Xanax last night so I could sleep. Was onlne here at DS and finally started feelng the Xanax so went to sleep...woke up this morning around 9. Nice little storm just blew through, lightning, thunder, hard rain, there's even a tornado warning for one of our adjoining counties. I love harsh weather...it reminds ne of growing up. We had an enclosed patio and I loved sitting out there and listening to the rain. I'm not sure how I feel right now, kinda numb. I know one of my biggest challenges is my finances. I got in way over my head and I have no way out except to sell our house and pay everything off. It's been on the market for 4 months now and only a couple veiwings. I bought this place to flip it and I know when it sells I stand to make a significant amount of money. But I lost my job last year and was out of work for a couple months and then found a job but took a couple more months to geet the commission running. Made some good money, but too little too late, I'm behind on almost everything and just don't know how or where to go. I feel so guilty and frustrated because I can't even do simple things for my family like taking them out to eat. Can't remember the last time we did that...I'm tired of living check to check and it never being enough. I just want to feel good about myself and my life again!!