Pain

I am so tired of being in pain. It sucks and I am so tired of it. I have been so depressed over the past couple of months because the pain has gotten progressively worse for me. I am not sure how long I can take it. I don't want narcotics because I am massively afraid of them and I can never get hold of the place that would refer me  to the pain clinic. I am so tired of rude people because they hurt all the rest of us. But I know people have it worse then me so most of the time I am strong. But why do I have to be all the time. There is only so much of me that can go around. All I want is for people to notice when I am in pain and help me because Lord knows I have asked for your help more times then I can count but no one has ever reached back. I am tried of giving and giving emotionally when I know for certain it is not given back.Those people know who the are! I am just sick of it. Please give me the peace I need Lord because I am hanging on by a thread. I am just tired and want a thousand hugs!