Feeling Sad

I don't know why I continuously set myself up to fail. I don't know why I think my daughters should show emotions and concern for me like I did for my mom. Am I saying that I was the best daughter in the world? Absolutely not. I most certainly had my flaws. But I always cared. I always called her at least twice a day to make sure she was ok. Maybe that was excessive, but it was how I was raised. Sometimes the call was -are u ok? Or maybe my mom would say I can't talk now cuz I am watching Jeopardy. But the connection was there. The caring was there. My younger daughter is much better than my older daughter in her keeping in touch. But for example it is now 9:00 and I haven't heard from her yet. I usually hear from her by 7 on a weekday morning if she is going to text. My other daughter gave me a call from the elevator of her office after having driven at least 30 min from her home. Guess I can't compete with her audio books. Let me backtrack a min. Yesterday I had facet block shots in my neck. The doc did 4 levels bilaterally. That hurts and this morning I am all swollen. My older daughter never even called to see how I felt yda. Is it unreasonable to expect one of her 30 second calls? I don't think so. But again maybe I am wrong. On Tuesday my younger daughters dog was sick. I got about 4 calls (FaceTime) from her and even met her on Wednesday to give her some meds for her dog. I got one text that said how did it go and that was it. I guess I am just venting because things never change. I have had several conversations with my older one to let her know how I feel but it goes in one ear and out the other. Ok self pity time is over. I have to put ice on my neck because I can't turn it.

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annettearizona
annettearizona

I\'m very sorry your own family members treat you so-but if it is any consolation..I know personally of another family whose children do not show care either..That is one reason I have found that I am closier to people online than I am with my own \"family\".HUGGGGGGSSSSS
jasmine0523
jasmine0523

Thanks. I appreciate the hug. I agree with what you said about your online friends. Hugs back atcha