Wow I can hardly believe it has been a month since I have written in my journal. Things are beginning to slow down here. My daughter had her baby 6: Saturday morning. Little Mikaela Ruth came into this world weighing 7lbs 11 oz. She is actuall the first of my grandchildren that has brown hair. Yay one that looks like us. LOLI finally am over that horrible flu that actually lasted for over a month.  I have been in a moderate to severe amount of pain and my pain doc changed me from the fentynal patch to opana. The jury isn't in yet but I am glad to be rid of the patch. It was very restrictive. Can't be in the sun too long, no hot tub and no hot baths. At least with the pill I can do those things. I started to get severe pain in my right hip or pelvic area and it sometimes radiates into my thigh. When my cat sits on my lap I have to shove her off sometimes because it is so painful. Can't imagine what that is but I go to the pain doc on Tuesday and will see what he says. I babysat for my grandchildren last nite ( 2yrs and 1year) and of course it was depressing knowing that I could not have done that without Joes help.  Sometimes I wonder if this is how it is going to be forever. I can't imagine feeling better and I may never will. I try and be positive but it is really hard sometimes.  I just think there is something else going on and am playing with the idea of seeing a rhematologist.Anyway I hope this finds all my friends in good health and in a good place mentally but for those of you who need to talk I am always here for you. I love you all and will speak to you soon.