The field of medicine has always been a mystery to me. You never know if someone is taking advantage of you because you have insurance or if they mean to help you. One thing I do know is that my surgeon has not been honest with me. I don't have to tell anyone what pain feels like. We all have it in different places. But for a doctor to look at an xray of my spine and tell me it looked beautiful and he didn't know why I was hurting is downright mean. He made me feel inadequate and like a hypochondriac. I spent the weekend self guessing myself and wondering if I was going crazy.

I went to a new doc who specializes in pain management and after he read my chart he told me my "beautiful back" was a mess. I looked at him and he went on to tell me what was wrong with me. That part wasm't pleasant but at least he took the time to sit with me, make me feel like I am not a lunatic, and gave me a plan of action. He put me on a pain patch and let me continue with flexeril and take the lorcet as needed. He already gave me a new type of epidural injection and have a second one scheduled in two weeks.

If you are not happy with your doctor, or if he or she is insensitive to your situation I urge you all to get a second opinion. I am not saying I will be back to normal, he even told me that, but he gave me hope that at least I will be able to function again.