Depression
This seems to be the only place now on where I can talk about my feelings. Seems their is nobody left in my life that cares. I've basicly given up. Everytime I seem to get close to somebody I push myself away from that person due to fact that it is hard to explain.
My last few months has been a down fall. Its always been a bad fall and never seem to go the right way.
My family has been torn apart so many times that right now its all broken. My ex husband is totally being a pain and seems like he still controls everything that I do.
I take notes at the doctors office for my benfits. Not his. I look at it that he is suppose to have insurance on our boys and it goes threw his wife. Which to me that is BS. All because he can't get insurance doesn't mean that he is still top dog. I got insurance to where it covers all the boys.
Oh well.. I guess that some people are just ass holes.
When I"m work all I think about is my boys. Wondering what they are doing and what they are thinking. I care about them so much that i wish that they were here all the time. I do want them to see their dad but don't keep taking them away from me.
I'm just praying that one day it will be better. I don't ever see a light at the end of the tunnel anytime soon. I try to support my boys any way I possible can. Everybody makes mistakes in life. One of mine was marriage. If I had known on what I was gong to become after our kids where born I would never stayed with him. Life from there just went down hill.
After I moved on, I thought that life was going to get better. No.. just another night mare. I don't think that their is anybody out there that would be so good to me. After all the challenges that I have to face. I don't think so.
I could say that this one guy that I dated 5 years ago was really good. At least he know on what mistakes he make and said that it was his fault. To this day I have forgivenn him on what he did.
My last few months has been a down fall. Its always been a bad fall and never seem to go the right way.
My family has been torn apart so many times that right now its all broken. My ex husband is totally being a pain and seems like he still controls everything that I do.
I take notes at the doctors office for my benfits. Not his. I look at it that he is suppose to have insurance on our boys and it goes threw his wife. Which to me that is BS. All because he can't get insurance doesn't mean that he is still top dog. I got insurance to where it covers all the boys.
Oh well.. I guess that some people are just ass holes.
When I"m work all I think about is my boys. Wondering what they are doing and what they are thinking. I care about them so much that i wish that they were here all the time. I do want them to see their dad but don't keep taking them away from me.
I'm just praying that one day it will be better. I don't ever see a light at the end of the tunnel anytime soon. I try to support my boys any way I possible can. Everybody makes mistakes in life. One of mine was marriage. If I had known on what I was gong to become after our kids where born I would never stayed with him. Life from there just went down hill.
After I moved on, I thought that life was going to get better. No.. just another night mare. I don't think that their is anybody out there that would be so good to me. After all the challenges that I have to face. I don't think so.
I could say that this one guy that I dated 5 years ago was really good. At least he know on what mistakes he make and said that it was his fault. To this day I have forgivenn him on what he did.
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