Well things seem to get better. This guy who I"ve been seeing we have some weird times that we can be together. People say how we do it but if you love that person then you have to deal with the rest of it also. He works nights and I work days and right now with both of us being really busy its hard but I care about him that I"m dealing with it. My exhusband tells me that he knows how it feels but he doesn't. The last time I saw him was Friday for about a half hour then he had to go to Nebraska to see his kids for christmas. I didn't want him to be on the road forever due to the fact that he was going to be driving threw snow and hasn't been able to sleep in the last 23 hours but when he came back he had to work that Monday night. So I know how his work is. But this Sunday I'll be able to see him for about 3 hours then he has to work after our bowling league. Thats the time that we usually get to spend together without my kids. But so he can have Christmas eve off he has to work on sunday night. I'm just trying to make the best of it and just hanging in here. I miss him every day of the week and minute. We talk on the phone just about everyday. I just hope that after the 1st of the year that things will slow down and we can be able to spend time together. But for now I"m just missing him so much and he knows it. I can't even sit and watch a movie because its hard with out him here. Well going to finish cleaning just want to let everyone know that I"m here and doing okay.