I know its been awhile since I've written anything but I"ve had so much on my mind that it was hard to put on paper. And its was things that I had to figure out. Finally, was able to move on with life. THANK GOD!!! It took awhile and patience but I finally got my ex and all of his memories out of my house. Every where I turned in a closet there was something that he left. Well in the trash it went. But I"m happy my kids are but sad that my baby is with his dad 50% of the time and 50% with me. I can tell that he is alot better off with me. When he comes back to me he is glued to me for the whole day.  I started to see this guy who I bowl with and it was weird that I've had a thing for him this whole time. Guess I never thought of seeing a bowling team mate. But he is a wonderful guy. We give each other space. He works nights and I work days. With the things that I've been threw he understands that my past doesn't matter to him. As long as I"m happy that is all cares about. He knows that my children are my world and he's known all my children. He also plays with them when they are at the bowling alley. He knows that I don't drink if I have my children in my care. Some people think that I'm weird because of that be he doesn't. He tells me that I'm a responsable parent. But things are going good. I finally worked on my company website today and got that going. finally can sell our crafts online. Took awhile to build and its still in the building stages and with that on-line I"ve had people as me to build their sites to. Guess, I can start a business with that too. I rather stayhome and build sites than being on the road all the time. but I guess getting out of the house every now and then well do some good. anyways, I should go and eat something. But on here all day building my website that I'm proud of and its a step on moving on with my ex in my life. A friend of mine told me "as long as you have people that love you and care about you they are always standing there beside you. As long you have faith in yourself you can go a long ways in life. Just think of the people who has been there threw the hard times and good times of your life and you well go a long ways"Just take one day at a time and enjoy every moment you get in your life. Don't take people for grannet just be thankful that they are there. Stop feeling sorry for yourself it just makes your life hard to deal with each day.