Things are still going a little crazy. We have been talking as much as we can and telling him how I feel about everything. Mother's day is coming up and I only get to see my son for only 6 hours. Its getting harder and harder each day to live but all I can do is live day by day and be thankful that I make it through it. I still care about him and don't want to see him take our son away from me. I love him very much and I want to show him that I am a good mother and want to raise our son right. I try to show him that I care about him and know that at this point that he wants to give up. I care about everything and he still calls me a liar. And everything I tell him, he comes back and says whatever. I'm trying to tell him that I"m not the person who I was and want to be the person that I use to be.