I feel a little better about slipping up and starting smoking again after surgery. I went to a counselor about smoking cessation today and he said that nicotine is more addictive than meth or heroin. No wonder I can't kick the addiction! He explained WHY it's so addictive and praised me for knowing that when I quit again, I can't ever have "just one". That's what got me to start up again!Anyway, we decided on a plan of action. I used the patches to help me quit when I was preparing for surgery, but I told him I didn't think they'd work this time, because I didn't have another surgery as a 2nd motivator. He said that was ok and introduced me to this "miracle drug". :) It's called Chantix and I already know about it. It tricks your brain into thinking it's getting nicotine when it really isn't. The company I work for (a pharmaceutical research company) actually did testing on it, so I've seen the good, the bad, and the ugly interms of side effects. Anyway, we decided that was the ONLY option for me and if I get cravings that I can't suppress, I'm supposed to chew the gum. He said the nicotine gum has the equivalent of 2 cigarette's worth of nicotine, so it should suppress it. PLUS, it doesn't have the 4,000 other chemicals that cigarettes do. He was going to give my surgeon a call and see if he could call in a prescription. I'm sure I won't hear about it for a month or so, but at least it's in the works. I want to quit again. I want to wake up without wheezing, and maybe start running. HA! Running. I doubt that'll EVER happen, but maybe. Anyway, I'll let you all know when my "quit date" is. We'll see!