i dont know where to start. i have my good days and bad. i am trying my hardest to stay positive. i was put on different meds for depression. they put me on prozac again but a higher dose. i hope this will work. i have been on so many meds they cant figure out what will help me. i have my family and friends around me they try to help me.  i have been off work almost a year because of a mistake i made. i have paid for it big time. i have a friend i have talked to that is coming back home next month so it helps when he is around, i find it very easy to talk to him. when i stop and think about things i feel bad i just have to stay busy. a friend of mine just lost her dad and then she was talking about ending her life so she could be with him. i think i have changed her mind but i could be wrong. i had a friend i talked to for a while, untill she took her life. i talked to her hours before she took her life. her mom called me after she found her. she had left a note for somebody to call me. i still blame myself for it. i feel like i should of saw the signs. in the last year i have lost 6 friends. sometimes i stop and think about other people that has it worse off then me. i have family that has helped me out in the last year. i look at pictures and it helps me feel better.