i have not been on for a couple days because i was spending time with chris/ boyfriend. he is leaving soon, i am not ready for him to go. he has been there for me when i needed him. i know it is going to be hard but i promised him i would be ok. i am going back to counseling. we had a good time together, we might be to close right now because he don't want to before he leaves, he knows its going to be hard on me, and he thinks if we do get to close it will be even harder on me. i am doing ok. but i still have back spasms. some which take my breath away.