i really don't know where to start, i am not good. i am trying my hardest to hang in there but it is really hard. i want to just give up, but i know at least the kids care about me. my nease and nephews. they mean everything to me, i used to be able to handle spending time with them but this time it's different. i can't handle being around them for even a day. what is wrong with me. i don't want to hurt the kids by not being there for me. another thing is i miss my grandma so much, she passed away this year. i just wish i had somebody to talk too.