i went to see my counselor today adn it didn't go to good. actually i feel alot worse now. i been thinking alot tonight and well i can see how me telling people how i feel is the worse i can do. i have lost some more friends, the ones that i thought understood but i guess tehy don't i don't have that many friends to begin with so i am having a really hard time. i am a bad person. i wish my life would go better i feel if it don't change i will not make it to much longer. my counselor asked if i have had suicidal thoughts and i said no but the real thing is i have had lots of them. i don't care anymore sorry i feel this way