i woke up this morning with a great deal of pain. i don't know if it was from the panic attack i have had or what, i tried to walk around the house but it hurt so bad. i been under alot of stress with family and work. i can't afford to quite my job, i am bearly making it from paycheck to paycheck. i don't have the energy to find another job. i talked to my counselor yesterday and she said she knew ther was more going on then i been telling her she wants me to start writting things down, she things that will help me. she said we need to talk thursday so i have a appointment. i just don't know how i will make it thought till then. i am in that much pain. i have not been able to put this last rape behind me. i live in fear now that it will happen again.