i went to my grandma's funeral and they ended up showing her for the entire time, i was very upset seeing her. after i got done i went on my little vacation and i was not able to enjoy myself, i had to much on my mind, i have been having alot of panic attacks latley, i did get to talk with my counselor today, it went really good, the only thing is she is really worried about me. i don't know what to do anymore, i am really depressed, i feel better when i see her and then when i leave i get depressed again, does anybody else feel like i do. please i need some advise