Life is pretty good. The boss is out all next week on a mission to the Honduras. The only hitch is that the owner will be very paranoid that the rest of us are goofing off so he will be dinging us with make work jobs that no one likes :) NC sweety and me are still a duo. I love her, yep! My last journal talked about how my money situation was not the best. I found a way to save another 2/3rds of a months salary before i move, but it may sound like a bad idea to some. My STBX(roomie) wants to go to a convention for a game she plays online. Well, LIVES in online :) She is logged into it every free moment. Anyway, she wanted to go to that convention very badly. Also, one of her new loves is there (yes, she has at least 2 or 3 that she has said the L words to). But alas, she does not have the money. But I am saving up to move out, you know.... So, I made a deal. I paid for her convention and air fare, and she lets me stay another month rent free. The net gain is well worth the expense. Move out date is now pushed back to Oct 1 or thereabouts If I watch my dimes, with that extra money, I should meet my minimum dollar amount for moving to NC. Then it will be time to think about taking a chance and moving, even if I do not have a job. I could go to my sweety with enough money to pay my way for a few months, even if unemployment is my only source of income. She will be reading this, so I hope that my entry generates some conversation on that ;) It would certainly be enough to move and set up an apt. However, I would need a job very quickly in order to meet expenses. Living with her, it would cover me for a few months minimum Missouri unemployment is 203 a wk and living with her, that would cover my obligations to the household very easily. Surely I can find a job in a couple of months that would pay enough so that I would not feel inferior. I will work whatever job I have to to survive. I just hope I can work 40 hours or so and make ends meet. If I have to, I will work 2 burger flipping jobs but life would suck without free time with my sweety. My dreams include a much happier scenario! My life in roomie's place is still tolerable but we often do not speak more than 10 words to each other. Not that much different than the last several years really, and better than the last 2 years were overall. Once in a while we have talked about her new men, especially one in particular and while it does feel bizarre to me sometimes, it is nice to live once again on friendly terms. We do not argue anymore, nor are there angry sessions with each other. Its just friendly resolve that our lives have moved to different people and are following seperate paths. Sometimes, I am hit with a blue moment and get teary. There are still past wounds that are not directly related to the divorce that seem to haunt me now. Betrayal is very hard to recover from I think. I am so happy that some here still read these entries. I hope that my blogs have helped you somehow. I know that posting this stuff here gives me an outlet that I would otherwise not have.
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I love to read about your happiness. It reassures me that there is life after divorce. Good luck on the move!
Im glad things seem to be going good for you. :)