Hello all!      Well, it was a fantastic trip, right to the moment I thought it would be a good time to try and define my role as I saw it in her household.  Hmm, mistake big time :)  Sooooo, we are still a couple but moving in is on hold.  Not the end of the world, but it is getting crunch time here, and I had hoped that the resolution of my living arrangements would mean her house in NC.        Love and kisses were the rule, passion a close friend, joy rubbed my back while happiness kissed my cheeks.  I danced with contentment and played cards with serenity and excitement.  Yep, I felt that good being with her.         We shopped together, ate out a lot, went to the ocean and toured the Dulpin Winery.  Shooped for clothes, hit the stores, watched a couple of movies and kissed and hugged and all the good stuff.       Is this real?  Feels like it.  But I was married for 31 years  When I got hitched in 75, I though it was real  One thing I am trying to get sweety to realize.  2 months wait or 2 years, you never know.  She kinda feels that way too, but something in her holds her back And lets face it  12 days visit and 2 months of talking in the internet does not mean you can be certain all the time  I just wish I had not paniced her.        I love her  Cannot stop myself at this point.  I have some fears about where we might be in a year, but she seems to feel the same way as me.  The hitch about moving in is all about whether she is ready to have me in her life 24/7 and all the obligations that come with that.    We talked and she has a better take on it.  Rather than try to define what role I will play in the house, just let things slide into place when it happens.  She says love will ease me into my place in the house so do not worry bout it.   Long as I do not put the pressure on her, she will be fine and I am sure that if her love continues, it will not be long before we live together   We both want to give it a go, least I am pretty sure we both feel the same about that.  She just has to get over the panic part of letting me in the house and obligations that come from that. I think if I had not sat down and tried to define my role, things would have been a lot better.  I did not mean to give her the idea I wanted to take over, I just wanted to try and figger out where I would fit.   But she saw it as me laying down the law, and her ex was very bad about that.  So I hit a sore spot.  I am good at that sometimes :) Well, gonna finishit out   Might move to Winston Salem (2 hours from her) and then visit on the weekends till she feels secure with me.   I got anotherjob working right there with her but not sure it is a job yet  They are not needing someone as bad as the other place.  I will take WS over nothing, but would prefer the same town as her Hugs to you all.  Special hugs to that nosey lady up north.  Blame her for keeping me reminded that I need to blog  Hope her life is getting better :)