Just a weekend and two days.  Will love bloom or wither?  Soon I will get a feel for the answer.  One day I will look back and remember these times.  The divorce will always suck.  Never have I so wanted to forget an experience in my life.      We always did a  family camp every year.  Found out stbx and oldest scheduled it for one of the weekends I am gone to NC.  Figgers, she wants her game friends to come visit, can't have me interfereing with that.  One of the  first things I talked about, less than 2 weeks after getting booted was that I wanted to be on that family camp.  Not one of the girls would  help me with that.  They were so worried about neutrality they took her side and let her exclude me.  One thing that this helps with is easing the anxiety moving to new sweety if she and I work out.  This camping thing is just the beginning of many times that will never be again.  Let me post what I wrote to my NC sweety this morningWe are toss offs from love you and I Refugees from a reluctant journey And as we wandered the trail set before us We found each other. Sweet and wonderful my love is for thee So great my heart doth fill with you Sweet and wonderful my love is for thee This is what I want forever Can hope be filled by just a kiss, love? If it can, then your kiss is it Can love last like the eternal flame? If so, I want it to be you Sweet and wonderful my love is for thee So great my heart doth fill with you Sweet and wonderful my love is for thee This is what I want forever Now I wait to hold and kiss you Time drags on and laughs at me mockingly Refusing my needy childish begging Reluctantly letting seconds expire Sweet and wonderful my love is for thee So great my heart doth fill with you Sweet and wonderful my love is for thee This is what I want forever   I love you, and will always be thankful for these times.   When we are old and gray, I will look back at how many changes I had during this 6 month period with fondness.   I know that you see a hole yet in me from this divorce, yet you took a chance on me.  I promise that my purity of heartfelt love for you will help recharge you.  I will do that as you help recharge me me, doing things that come so naturally to you as you help me to continue to move on.