Been a while since I blogged but not really had much to add. I still do not see a way to bring her heart back, so I just keep going on. She is gone for the weekend, visiting her favorite Second Life friends. It was such a joy to see how happy she was going to see them. But the funny thing is, it is really nice not having her here LOL I got the whole house to myself. She does not want me in her game, she says it feels like me spying on her. Hmmm, I agreed for this time, but I don't think those are fair standards She is working the singles sites. Heck, I am on there too, but I am not looking for anything or decieving folks about my situation. It's hard to have her talk for an hour to another man. She went to her truck outside and shut the door. She told me it was a friend from work. Oh yea, she answers "Oh HI!" then heads out the door in flash and jumps in her pickup. I asked her about it and instead of just telling the truth she lied to me boldface. It made me uncomfortable, but it did not anger me. I have a wake up going on. Even in the best of times, I never could control what she wanted. I just had the illusion I could. I have no anger left in me, only remorse and regret. I am gonna enjoy these last times with her. I pray every day, many times a day. I know now that unconditional love is bull and just an illusion. Never be fooled again. Next woman I have is gonna be on probation for damn sure