This is a fantastic day. I am so happy I just want to shout!! Today, for the first time in at least 3 maybe 5 years, I was able to buy pants at Wal-mart! I have lost over 8 inches now off my waist/belly. I even jogged some on my daily 2.8 mile walk! It is a day to remember
April 26, one month and one day after she asked for the divorce. At the rate I am losing, I should be down to 46 in a month. Maybe even sooner. It feels good to see parts of my body that have been missing for years.

I feel a bit guilty feeling so good when my wife feels so badly. I dunno why I even care but even now, even as I start to learn the meaning of alone, and FEEL it without dying a death every minute, she had a very bad day. She lost a resident. She loves each one just like a mother, father or brother, and each death tears her down. I want to comfort her, but after last night, I think I will never again be able to do anything for her. Its okay, I do not plan to initiate any conversation anyway. I don't need it.

Today she found solace from her internet friend. She is a smart lady, yet in that matter, she cannot stop herself from being played like a 15 year old.