Well today was my STBX birthday. She made up herself really pretty and dressed in a nice outfit because my oldest was treating her and me to supper. She hardly ever dressed up and made up for me these last years I looked at her an longed with all my heart to stop this mess. I know that much of this was my fault, and the damage in her eyes is just too great. All I can think of is how much I have lost. She has all the qualities I want in a woman, hard working, kind heart, loving soul, but I guess I just wore her down. I wonder how she can be so affectionate to someone in a virtual world when she has a man in the real world just dying for an affectionate kiss, some sign that she still has feelings for me. But although my heart aches, I know she has already moved on. I looked at the statistics about remarriage and that was a shocker More women than men remarry. 80 percent of women and 75 percent of men. 60 percent of all second marriages fail. Those statistics make me feel grim.