feeling sad

Okay, so I am feeling sorry for myself which is so lame (my kids use that word) because I am able to do quite a bit compared to so many people who are truly struggling with not being able to get out of their houses, or even their beds.  I apologize to all of you for my being a whimp!
I received an invitation to go to a party for the secretary of the program that I was in as a chaplain.  It is today.  I am not there.  My supervisor is giving away books from the CPE library that they no longer need, and for those of you who know me -- I love books.  (a bit of an understatement) And, I would like to see some of my friends from when I was a chaplain.   Anywhooo....  I am disappointed.
Everybody has disappointments.  My husband said something the other day about my being anti-social for not going with some friends to a meeting at our church.  He said he was just kidding.  I had to muster up the energy to give him another one of those talks about how I wish I could do things, etc. etc.
I am anti-social.  I admit it.  But I think we need a different kind of word here.  I am to the point of not really knowing how to be social anymore. 
Well, that's it for now.  Just sharing a disappointment and feeling ashamed that I feel sad about it.  Then again, even people who aren't able to do as much as I can are still disappointed now and again.  How fair is to compare our disappoinments?  They are what they are and we can empathize, I  suppose.
carry on,
katy
p.s.  forgot to note that the past couple of weeks have been a rough patch.  I had a bad cold one week and then for the past couple of weeks I have been trying to find strength every day to get myself going.  So tired.