O.k.  it's high time I wrote an update entry for my DS friends out there who have been so wonderful. Life is just busy.  I'm one of those people who can get consumed by their job.  It isn't healthy.   I always feel like I need to try harder.  My husband says my problem is I care too much.  So what I'm trying to say is that I've been working a lot.  So there isn't much time to visit DS.  I do read what is going on with my friends and I do scan recent posts looking for anyone who has problems similar to mine in the hopes of finding some new angle to pursue. How am I handling my secondary infertility???   I keep putting it off.  I was going to try one more time in the summer then decided I needed to do a "detox" program with my naturopath.  Now I am so crazy busy with work I'm putting off until the new year.  I know work stresses me out so of course I feel it could contribute to my miscarriages.  I know a second baby is worth it but we really can't afford for me to take a year off to have a "stress free" pregnancy.   We would have to move.   We couldn't meet all expenses and our mortgage without my salary. Right now I'm trying to rule things out.  I have been having pain - just a dull ache off and on ever since these miscarriages began.  I've been told by 4 doctors it is unrelated.  Fine.  So why not check it out.  It took over two months to get in to see my regular doctor.  Right now I am scheduled for a pelvic and abdominal ultrasound and we're doing a OFB test.I just want to know if I am just unhealthy in an area outside of my reproductive system and if it would interfer with a pregnancy. So I'm putting off my decision to try one last time until January.  In the meantime I keep trying to get as healthy as possible.  It's almost killing me!!  I'm doing an intense cardio kick class on Monday, step on Tuesdays and Thursdays and spin classs on Wednesday.  Any other days, I try to run outside or on the treadmill.  Ugh.  I haven't lost a pound.  Eveyone says I look more toned but I would sure like to lose 10 to 20 pounds.  I'm working on the eating habits.  (I've got to do something about the left over Halloween candy......it's too tempting!)