I apologize in advance for this negative entry.  I'm in a pissy mood and I just have to work through it. Let's try to put this into perspective.  I've been covering for a colleague at work in addition to my regular workload so I am tired.  And I got my period today. And it is days from the anniversary of losing my last baby. So another colleague who is just two years younger than me tell me today that she is having a baby.  She's almost three months along.  I am truly happy for her.  It is her second child.  She will have this second child exactly two years after her first.  Everything is going exactly as they planned and that's wonderful. But inside me sometimes.....it's like a punch in the stomach or a great big sign thrust in my face.   YOU ARE NOT PREGNANT.   YOU CAN'T CARRY A BABY TO TERM.  YOU CAN'T HAVE A SECOND CHILD.   It's like a whack in the face reminding me of what I lost and what I can't seem to have.   Sorry.  I suppose I'm being unreasonable, selfish etc....  It just doesn't get any easier.  For now anyway.  So I'm having one of those weepy evenings.  I've burst out in tears a few times. I guess I'm allowed to cry once in a while.