9/11/10 26 days smoke free
I am having a MAJOR anxiety attack about going back to work tomorrow!!!! I got on my knees and prayed to ask God for his guidance in going back..I don't know whats going on with me?? First of all I have never been smoke free as a flight attendant ever in my entire airline history!!!!! My job is sooooo stressful and smoking helped me get through for many years. I honestly wish that I didn't ever have to ever go back because I honestly don't like being a flight attendant anymore. I used to when I drank and smoked but I know it sounds weird but I really need Gods guidance on what work is best for me. I know right now is a terrible time to leave a job, I have been with this airline since 1997. I really don't like to fly anymore, it makes me sad because I used to enjoy it. I wish I could stay off work forever.... Boy, I never thought I would have all this anxiety, I have never had it all before, but I am scared... i'm trying not to think too much into it !!! I have been sooo tempted tonight to smoke cause I am nervous.. I wish I didn't need this job. I have been feeling this way a long time but now with quiting smoking my true feelings are coming out more than ever!!!
Maybe I can make some goals, to try to figure out what direction regarding my job, I could go into. I have been thinking about this for ages. I really have trouble figuring out what I am good at and won't get bored of easily. There are some good things about working for the airlines you can have a lot of days off and have a flexible schedule. Not many jobs are that flexible!! Thats why I have hung in there all these years. They work with me if I need time off for my depression and anxiety issues. I work with different people all the time which can be good. I have been burned out for soooo long. It makes me feel sick thinking about it.
Maybe I can make some goals, to try to figure out what direction regarding my job, I could go into. I have been thinking about this for ages. I really have trouble figuring out what I am good at and won't get bored of easily. There are some good things about working for the airlines you can have a lot of days off and have a flexible schedule. Not many jobs are that flexible!! Thats why I have hung in there all these years. They work with me if I need time off for my depression and anxiety issues. I work with different people all the time which can be good. I have been burned out for soooo long. It makes me feel sick thinking about it.
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i\'m a f/a too. it will be alright....though i know the anxiety in which you speak.
I hope it turns out to be less stressful than it feels like it\'s going to be right now. Extreme anxiety sucks big time. Best of luck to you!!!! ((((((Hugs)))))
You do need to turn to God now when the stress hits - but that is the real source of comfort - the others were just lies to keep you in bondage. You are on the right path, but remember, it is one step at a time, one day at a time. But you already knew that!