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this morning I went to seven counties as a walk in to see about a counselor and maybe some medication for depression to be prescribed but they couldn't see me, so I found another dr that can see me on the 30th. Everytime I think of my Dad and my loss, and his cancer I cry so hard and I just cant control myself. It seems like everyday it gets harder than easier. I wonder if I will ever be fine, but I know in my heart I will.
Last night I talked to my boyfriend and he was so intensely nasty. Like text book abusive verbally and emotionally. I hung up, said goodbye, texted him that I wont be seeing him anymore, and then blocked his number. I believe I will never see him again, or speak to him. Whatever belongings I have at his house he can just throw away. I don't want any reason to ever run in to him again or to ever see his face- ever.
He really had me fooled. A few weeks back he wanted to move in and get married. In August as a matter of fact. For months we have been soul mates.
Now all of a sudden he turned on me, and I guess he just doesn't love me after all. Oh well. I loved him, or who I thought he was. It looks like after several months the masks fall away and you learn the true nature of people. Its kinda scary how someone can gain your trust and enter so personally and closely into your life- only to turn into a monster who hurts you with no rhyme or reason. No logical reason at all. I think he must be a crazy person. The type of man who is like- some kind of woman predator or something. He has some kind of crazy streak, some kind of intense anger issue. He was very cruel to me, so much so and for no valid reason I can identify that it takes my breath away and shocks me! I guess I learned a very valuable lesson.
Last night I talked to my boyfriend and he was so intensely nasty. Like text book abusive verbally and emotionally. I hung up, said goodbye, texted him that I wont be seeing him anymore, and then blocked his number. I believe I will never see him again, or speak to him. Whatever belongings I have at his house he can just throw away. I don't want any reason to ever run in to him again or to ever see his face- ever.
He really had me fooled. A few weeks back he wanted to move in and get married. In August as a matter of fact. For months we have been soul mates.
Now all of a sudden he turned on me, and I guess he just doesn't love me after all. Oh well. I loved him, or who I thought he was. It looks like after several months the masks fall away and you learn the true nature of people. Its kinda scary how someone can gain your trust and enter so personally and closely into your life- only to turn into a monster who hurts you with no rhyme or reason. No logical reason at all. I think he must be a crazy person. The type of man who is like- some kind of woman predator or something. He has some kind of crazy streak, some kind of intense anger issue. He was very cruel to me, so much so and for no valid reason I can identify that it takes my breath away and shocks me! I guess I learned a very valuable lesson.
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