I am at work thinking how I am now different from everyone. There is no one but you wonderful ladies who know how I feel and what my life is like. I am in a different, separate group. No one will ever understand no matter how hard they try. Everyone here gets to go home to their living children. I am coming up on nine months and thought I was doing better. I think I am in for a hard time this winter. I hate this new life.
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I have living children but I find myself longing for my toddler. Yesterday I was outside blowing bubbles with Symone and she asked me to blow them up to Annaya... After that I was no good... I kept imagining Annaya sitting in her stroller giggling and clapping her hands. It is a hard road to tread and I hate this life too. I can only pray that tomorrow will look up.
Hugs!!!
N.
I know exactly how you feel - I sit at work thinking the same thing everyday - there is one man who works here that has been through a stillbirth around 20 years ago - he does tell me it gets easier as time goes by, but its always there - most other people like to make comments on how good I look and how much weight I\'ve lost, but we all know at the end of the day comments like that are no good, there are still some people here that don\'t talk to me, and that hurts too - wishing you some peace
Diane
I know what you mean. Our boys should be thriving! Its much to quiet at home even with the 2 dogs. I do work from home so I have limited contact with my coworkers. So I\'m shielded from some of it but I can\'t help but to think how much different my life should be right now.
Hopefully our boys will both be big brothers before to long!
Oh Pamela, I\'m so sorry. I know this sucks being so close but so far away. All these people have other children and we come home to a empty, quiet house. Hang in there. It will be 8 mos tomorrow since Lauren died and I\'m so far away from where I was. I\'m glad I feel better than right after but things seem to be so obvious these days the differences are remarkable. People don\'t get me anymore except for my husband. Sometimes he even says that I need to be more positive and do I know how many people this has happened to? Sometimes I am so sad. I think that we will find some hope again sometime soon. We have to. Big Hugs and Prayers. Love, Lindsay
9 Months today. That\'s how old our boys would be today. My dad recons I shouldn\'t have monthly anniversaries. But I can\'t help feeling extra sad around every 15th of every month. Thinking of you today. xxxxx
I crossed that nine month mark on August 30th. All day I was consumed with thoughts of, \"She\'d be learning to crawl. . .\"
No, we\'re certainly not like other people anymore. It sucks. Hugs, Kelsey
im so sorry : ( im going on only 5 weeks and it is such a rollersoaster of emotions. to be honest the first 2 weeks after were better than these last 3. i go back to work in a week and im so nurves to face all those people and hear their regrets and have to deal with the question of the customers (i work at publix) no one will ever understand the pain even the people that have been through it feel different feelings because everyone goes through grief different. but im so thankful i found this support group, it has helped me this last week. i wish you the best at work and im not looking forward to this holiday season either. i completely understand! my best friend and i were pregnant at the same time and she is at home with her beutiful baby girl and im left with out this. no dress up for holloween no thanks giving and no 1st christmas : (
I feel the same way. I don\'t have anything in common with anyone. I don\'t want to talk to anyone. I hate this new way of life.