Wow it's been awhile. It's so true that we only write when we are depressed, isn't it? I have some really good things going on in my life right now, but the bad things are currently outweighing them. How can I be happy about some of my personal dreams coming true when other parts of my life are falling apart? My autistic son is getting worse and worse. It is getting to the point where he is hard to manage at home. His autism is severe. I don't think I could go on living if I had to institutionalize him. I don't know what to do. It's a really sucky place to be in.