My husband told me the other day that he really wanted to be nice to me, but that I made it impossible for him. I struggle with my self- worth and self-confidence because or him. My father thinks I work because of my disabled son; I work because it is the only place where I am valued and respected. If I had only my husband, I'd be depressed out of my mind. I have a lot of things going for me, things I've worked very hard to achieve. Maybe he feels threatened by this. He constantly tries to take away what is me, my essence. It's killing me. And on top of that I wonder if I'd ruin any marriage, if I'm like he says l am, and that I'd drive any man crazy. If I were to fall in love with another man and I were free, would I dare risk marrying again? Or would the trials of daily living ruin it? Would I ruin it? That knowledge would break my heart.
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Hey there I was married to the wrong man for 16 years my family died and before my mother died she knew she was, anyway she took me to court so I could get married and the judge said at 12 yrs. of age the only way I could marrie was if I got PG so I did well he was alot older than I and he was as bad as they can get, I had a daughter and she died but then had two sons, my point is I was worthless ugly fat and just a very bad person, at least this is what my ex tried to convience me of and I was such a bad person no one would ever look at me... I was stalked we had guns and knives pulled on us and we ran for over 12 yrs.Then he went to a hospital he couldnt walk out of and I was able to file for a divorce, well within a year I met and married the right man, and we`ve been married over 20 yrs. so do not fall into that your ugly, fat and a bad person crap thats thier insecuritys not yours and no one wants to be a myater... Cheryl